Communing with my Saint

The blackbirds beckoned me toward the woods, reminding me of the autumns we spent under their myriad voices, flocked together to signal the change of season. I was going anyway, with the confluence of All Saints' Day and Deer Opener, my first as an actual widow, rather than the jokingly named Hunting Widow. But the … Continue reading Communing with my Saint

No Redemption Worth the Price

In the four months since Marrett's death, there have been a few moments of what Jaamil Kosoko calls "post-traumatic enlightenment".  The things that Marrett taught me have coalesced in important ways that are giving new shape to the way I carry him with me moving forward. My understanding of the afterlife is undergoing a complete … Continue reading No Redemption Worth the Price

Entreat Them Not To Leave You: A Sermon on Ruth 1

The most misused wedding text in the bible is 1 Corinthians 13, but Ruth’s speech to Naomi from this morning’s reading has to be a close second. Perhaps you know the song based on this speech, Entreat Me Not To Leave You, which has been sung at many weddings. Now, don’t get me wrong, these … Continue reading Entreat Them Not To Leave You: A Sermon on Ruth 1

Five

Today it would have been five. It should have been five. This year, more than any of the other four, we worked our marriage hard. Because we'd been under so much stress with my work and his career change, with family situations, and with a recurrent conflict between us, we started a marriage enrichment book … Continue reading Five

Cause of Death

Cause of Death: Immediate, Hypertensive Cardiovascular Disease Other Contributing Conditions: Hepatomegaly, Hepatic Steatosis Monday morning, the death certificates arrived at the funeral home, the signal I'd been waiting for to say the toxicology report was finished and the autopsy officially complete. I talked to the medical examiner Monday afternoon. He seemed as shocked as I was … Continue reading Cause of Death